Never A Dull Moment

Now to Him who is able to do IMMEASURABLY more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work in us, to Him be the glory...Ephesians 3:20-21 

I love this.  I've mentioned it several times before but I just cannot shake the reminder that He does not fit into my box - you know the one, that I put him in.  I am THANKFUL that Jesus does not fit into my box.  I went to lunch with my friend Diana today and we talked about a lot of things that have been happening in our lives or the lives of people around us lately.  I know that you're tired of "hearing" me complain or talk about the same things over and over again, but I think I need to be able to talk about it so that I can move on.  Most of the time, we feel like we can explain the things in our lives: the decisions we make, the choices, the consequences - they're all a result of some action that we take, whether good or bad.  The things in our lives are usually explainable.  It's hard to imagine a different life - the result of different choices and decisions.

I realized today, perhaps before today, that I will never be able to explain the last year of my life.  I'll never be able to rationalize it as one thing or another.  I'll never have any understanding. I just have to trust that Jesus knows what he is doing.  I went to a new Bible study this past week and one of the girls in my study said that when God takes away the things that we want the most, it's for a good reason that we may never understand.  Maybe he was protecting me from something or maybe he was preparing my heart for something new. I'll never know.  I think sometimes that I've moved on from the hurt and the crazy wildness of the past year until something happens, good or bad, like I find renters for a condo that's been empty for five months or I find out that my co-worker has been fired, or my manager walks in and quits suddenly, or I find out that a friend lost his job and I'm right back to that very moment.

I've learned so much about myself, about the working world and about life in the past year.  But I still have so much to learn.  And just when I think that things in my life are starting to calm down a little, today, the manager that I've worked for the past 6 months quit.  He then proceeded to verbally vomit on me, all of his frustrations from the past 6 months.  I've been feeling anxious and awkward all day.  I'm just not sure what's next....Do I take Mark at his word and run like hell? Or do I take Craig (the big boss) at his word and stick with it and hope for a promotion or a pay raise?  After today, as if it weren't already bad enough, I have ZERO trust in the working world.

Waiting for him to do IMMEASURABLY more than all I could ask or imagine....

Marie